Breakups Suck September 15, 2009

so i broke up with my boyfriend not too long ago, because i just couldnt deal with him controlling me anymore. it wasnt because i didnt love him anymore, or because i wanted to do it just to hurt him or piss him off. which is what he thinks. and it really sucks because i still love him and cry over him every day. i feel like a little 5th grader but ive never been this miserable. i know ill get over it, but that seems like an impossible feat at the moment…especially since he has a new girlfriend. who’s last name is COWHERD, just thought id toss that fun fact in there. i hate seeing them walking across campus, holding hands. it hurts so much.

but i know im better off without him. he has already spent all the money he earned working this summer on drugs. has nothing left to pay for rent or his groceries. he never goes to class. he makes this new girl drive him to and from burlington all the time, and she cleans his house and does everything for him. been there, done that…i know see that he has not changed AT all.

i just want to go home, and get away from them.

on the brighter side, i start clinicals at porter hospital on the 29th, and my 21st birthday is on the 24th! exciting!!!

ok bye bye

Sun Sun Sunny Sunshine YAY May 25, 2009

It’s a little chilly today but i dont care. im still wearing a sundress and sitting outside…even if i do have a couple goose bumps. I only have a few more days of freedom. Once june 15th rolls around, ill be dealing with snotty noses, poopy pants, and ridiculously loud voices. oh the joys of children! i hate my job, but i love it too. it allows me to spend all day outside. Kingsland Bay is gorgeous! I also get to hang out with my friends all day, and occasionally pay attention to my campers. hahaha

Things have been kind of weird lately…i dont really know what to think of it. i think that because i screwed around my freshman year, that i might not get into nursing. also, things with the boyfriend are really bad. i’m not quite sure how to deal with it, or how much longer i can! my way of coping with things is pretending that all is fine, hoping that it will actually turn out ok. but in the back of my head, i know it wont. i just cant deal with confrontation and all the junk. 

umm i think i m gonna have some lemonade.  mmmm

OH WAIT i forgot to say this: i played with a baby tortoise and now i am in love and WANT ONE! i took pics. here look!

ozzie!

Scary April 8, 2009

right now, we are all sitting in the common room, with the door locked so that no media can come in. mariah’s dad is a captain in the merchant marines, and his ship has been hijacked by pirates. they are off the coast of somalia, and her dad was taken off the ship and onto a lifeboat, held at gunpoint by the pirates. the media has already tried to contact mariah via facebook, and are on there way here now, so we are trying to keep mariah out of their reach. it is crazy right now, and we are all very scared and worried for richard….

the world today is so messed up.