Breakups Suck September 15, 2009

so i broke up with my boyfriend not too long ago, because i just couldnt deal with him controlling me anymore. it wasnt because i didnt love him anymore, or because i wanted to do it just to hurt him or piss him off. which is what he thinks. and it really sucks because i still love him and cry over him every day. i feel like a little 5th grader but ive never been this miserable. i know ill get over it, but that seems like an impossible feat at the moment…especially since he has a new girlfriend. who’s last name is COWHERD, just thought id toss that fun fact in there. i hate seeing them walking across campus, holding hands. it hurts so much.

but i know im better off without him. he has already spent all the money he earned working this summer on drugs. has nothing left to pay for rent or his groceries. he never goes to class. he makes this new girl drive him to and from burlington all the time, and she cleans his house and does everything for him. been there, done that…i know see that he has not changed AT all.

i just want to go home, and get away from them.

on the brighter side, i start clinicals at porter hospital on the 29th, and my 21st birthday is on the 24th! exciting!!!

ok bye bye

Sun Sun Sunny Sunshine YAY May 25, 2009

It’s a little chilly today but i dont care. im still wearing a sundress and sitting outside…even if i do have a couple goose bumps. I only have a few more days of freedom. Once june 15th rolls around, ill be dealing with snotty noses, poopy pants, and ridiculously loud voices. oh the joys of children! i hate my job, but i love it too. it allows me to spend all day outside. Kingsland Bay is gorgeous! I also get to hang out with my friends all day, and occasionally pay attention to my campers. hahaha

Things have been kind of weird lately…i dont really know what to think of it. i think that because i screwed around my freshman year, that i might not get into nursing. also, things with the boyfriend are really bad. i’m not quite sure how to deal with it, or how much longer i can! my way of coping with things is pretending that all is fine, hoping that it will actually turn out ok. but in the back of my head, i know it wont. i just cant deal with confrontation and all the junk. 

umm i think i m gonna have some lemonade.  mmmm

OH WAIT i forgot to say this: i played with a baby tortoise and now i am in love and WANT ONE! i took pics. here look!

ozzie!

Scary April 8, 2009

right now, we are all sitting in the common room, with the door locked so that no media can come in. mariah’s dad is a captain in the merchant marines, and his ship has been hijacked by pirates. they are off the coast of somalia, and her dad was taken off the ship and onto a lifeboat, held at gunpoint by the pirates. the media has already tried to contact mariah via facebook, and are on there way here now, so we are trying to keep mariah out of their reach. it is crazy right now, and we are all very scared and worried for richard….

the world today is so messed up.

Rain April 3, 2009

today is gross. tomorrow is going to be gross. the whole week was just gross. what a bad week for spring break. sissy is coming tonight, but i leave on sunday, so that leaves me with only one whole day to see her. it sucks. i have the worst luck with things. i think this rain is putting me in a really blue mood. the last thing i want to do is go back to school. i just want to stay at home, with my mom and sister.

i spent all of yesterday and today cleaning the house for jeff and sarah. i made up a little bed for sarah in my room, because god forbid an engaged couple sleep in the same room!!!! hahaha

the birds are singing, so i guess that makes me feel a little better…

i have been looking for a nice fleece for a while and i cant find an affordable one anywhere! i wanted a north face one, but they are like 100 bucks, and there is no way im paying that much for a stupid jacket. my winter coat wasnt even that much money. jhsfdfhsfhsdkjfh yucky mood im in. help me!

BareMinerals! March 29, 2009

this is what i have!

Paul’s mom bought me a bareminerals starter kit and i am so excited about it. i have always wanted one but they are so ridiculously expensive. i tried it out on my mom, memere, and aunt, but none of them even noticed a difference. I DID SO THAT IS ALL I CARE ABOUT! it came with an instructional dvd that i have watched a million times, to be sure that i am doing this right. i love this stuff…especially the mineral veil and the super soft brushes. it also came with this awesome lotion that makes my face feel brand new. love it!

it is so nice to be home. granted i have just been hanging around, doing chores and running random errands with my mom, but i still love it. i cant wait for the summer…and my sisters wedding!!! it will be so pretty. me dress is amazing (good color choices, sissy!) and i cant wait until i have it so i can try it on a billion times and be vain and look in the mirror. it stinks that her wedding is the day before i have to leave for school, because i will be so rushed with everything, but it will be such a fun day anyways! i have never been in a wedding, nor do i remember much of the ONE that i have been to, so this should be interesting.

my mom and i are planning a “mother-daughter day” which i love because she always buys me little things and takes me out to lunch. im so spoiled hehehehe

for some reason, i have become very fond of anything zebra print. i went to target the other day and was so tempted to buy everything i saw that was zebra, but im basically broke so i knew i shouldnt…..but i really wanted to!!!!

xoxo me

Spring Break March 28, 2009

its finally here. im sitting in my own bed, not some gross plastic mattress at school. i dont have to listen to my roommates coughing fits at night. i can sleep peacefully…

or so i though.

my father is currently snoring so loud that i can hear it through my closed door, and with my fan on. oh well.

as a side note, i have become obsessed with MGMT…i dont know why or how…but i love every song.

im hoping this vacation will help me calm down. i have been so worked up over this nursing thing, and it doesnt help that my advisor is completely unavailable at all times. i am lost, and on my own. or at least it feels that way. i have no idea what i am supposed to be doing, and i have emailed my advisor (and others) a million times, yet still have not gotten a response. oh well.

another problem i have is living in a suite. i like my space and privacy, and i dont like listening to unnecessary drama. i feel like if it does not involve me at all, then why try to drag me into it?! i have my own shit to deal with.

sorry, now im just rambling on about everything. this isnt going to be a very interesting blog, but my life isnt too cool either, so deal!

k going to bed now night night

My First Blog March 26, 2009

We are making these things in class right now, and I’m so confused. I have to choose what the purpose of my blog is going to be, but I don’t have a clue! Help me out!

It looks kind of fun, especially since I got to choose from a bunch of pretty themes for my own page. I am still wondering, though, what is the difference between a post and a page!??! So confusing. I think it should just be one or the other. I feel like I am my mother on a computer…she never knows what to do with them.

xoxo me